PREGGIE TIME

What?!!!!... not yet...  bila login jer blog setelah sekian lama, terbaca update ms.ainor about her current pregnancy.. the 1st one...only few weeks to go.. tetiba terpikir bila lah nak get pregnant balik nih... haha.. my son dah nak masuk 4 years old, but still don't think he can be a big brother.. my lil boy... tapi kalau dah  time... ready or not... open heartsss.. open armssss...

Eventhough, currently I only have 1 lil boy... but I've been pregnant 4 times... hmmm... 

The 1st time after about half year of marriage... however, exactly on the 12 weeks of pregnancy.. I had miscarriaged (keguguran ler). Ingat lagi, the day before that (dah petang sgt), I had little spotting... terus gi jumpa doctor kat klinik, doctor just suruh duduk diam2 kat rumah... baring.. dan jangan buat apa2...  still, belum ada rezeki, before tengah hari I bleeding.. blood clog came out... bila gi clinic, doctor check and confirm that I'd miss abortion.. doctor bagi ubat and advised to let the abortion settled naturally...  we went to PD after that (family vacation that was plan earlier, rasanya petang hari yg sama or day after that), nak tinggal kat rumah dgn hubby jer... mcm tak boleh nak diharap jer... so just ikut ler... the next morning masa kat PD, I'd a stomach ached... although I'm on a pain killer.. it's still very painful... so we drove off to Seremban Specialist Medical Center (my hubby and my mother in-law)...there, I 'd the D&C (Dilation & Curettage) by the doctor-on-call... a male doctor... darurat... of coz, I dont have a slight idea of the D&C procedure since I'm on general anesthesia... ptg tu after rest for  few hours... dah kuar hospital...
that's the 1st one... sedih jugak masa tu coz I did experienced all the morning sickness, nausea... etc

The 2nd pregnancy, few months after but its a natural miss abortion at 7 weeks plus... some people may not noticed that they were pregnant and may consider having their period delayed. I did notice because at that time I really monitor mine.. maklumlah, almost or passed a year kawin..(excited sikit ler bab2 ni), so lewat jer period, terus beli pregnancy test kid... it was positive... then gi clinic.. positive also (but the doctor said 'mild'), then when I'm bleeding again (was it period or what), so this time around I went to see gynea at the nearest specialist hospital, KJMC, the result is ..yes I WAS pregnant...and now I had an early miscarriage.. the ultrasound indicates that there was a conception by means of gestational sac.... this time around, tak terasa sedih sgt... coz still too early...

The 3rd pregnancy.. masa dapat tau that I pregnant, terus jumpa doctor and terus refer to specialist,( sebab sejarah pregnancy yg not so good)... so from the begining of my 3rd pregnancy... terus jumpa gynae at DMC. Alhamdullillah...  all the way up to 37 and 1/2 weeks before I gave birth to my lil boy via cesarean operation. Terpaksa buat C-section sebab no fluid inside the womb.. so takut baby lemas bila ada contraction... Well, I don't think I managed to experienced the 'before labor' contraction... cuma sakit sangat bila kena inject anaesthetic kat tulang belakang (maybe sebab I tak sempat rasa sakit for natural labor), the injection seems very painful and my hands shiverred throughout the entire operation. My baby boy was then safely delivered on Friday, 4th.May.2007. Alhamdullillah...

The 4th pregnancy.. after 3 years, just after I removed the implanon.. I'm positively 6 weeks pregnant when doing the first pregnancy test at the clinic... Awal pregnant time bulan puasa is challenging... first few days of puasa, tak boleh nak sahur, makan jer ...then everything will come out just after that...  tapi siang, ok jer... morning sickness during sahur time jer la... 8 weeks pregnant gi clinic lagi untuk buat ultrasound ..( dah lebih 3 tahun, don't want to be too excited and to straightly jumpa the specialist)  ... no heartbeat detected, only gestational sac... not even the yolk sac... then doctor advised to come again in 2 weeks time, sebab doctor kata maybe I salah kira, or sometime after few weeks baru boleh confirm... on the 10th week, without high hope (since I'm doing a lot of google to find out.. ingatkan I'm having a blighted ovum) ..gi jumpa doctor lain.. tunjuk jer gambar ultrasound 8th week tu... she referred me to the specialist at CAP. Kat hospital, buat ultrasound cuma nampak gest.sac... then buat insertion check(tak sure apa term procedure tu sebenarnya)... the gynae confirmed that there is a yolk sac and fetus, but the fetus stop growing at 6 weeks (the heart beat stop after 6 weeks).. not a blighted ovum.
Since bulan puasa... ingat boleh ler puasa penuh, 3hb.Sept.2010, iaitu keesokan harinya, just 1 week before hari raya, I'm having a D&C again. Ingat lagi the doctor laugh at me when I said "sayang ler puasa..." bila doctor proposed buat D&C.  Doctor tu ckp... "Awak nak ker time2 raya tetiba bleeding...".. so apa lagi, "ok ler doctor".

Selepas D&C kali ni, macam ok jer... tak macam the 1st one (rasa mcm fobia sket)... now, its like having a normal period... maybe because of the experience, maybe because belum sempat bleeding lagi... every time is different.. and I believe will be different the next time I pregnant again..
Hopefully no more miscarriage/ miss abortion... to safely pregnant until safely deliver... Amin...

What is blighted ovum , the gest sac.. what is yolk sac... picture worth a thousand words... 

 The gestational sac is empty

A blighted ovum is a type of pregnancy loss which happens in very early pregnancy. Your midwife or doctor might also refer to it as an anembryonic pregnancy, but it is more likely they will call it a silent or missed miscarriage. After conception, the fertilised egg (ovum) implants in your uterus (womb), but for some reason a baby does not develop.

 

The yolk sac can be seen inside the gest. sac

WHY I have a BLOG

Tetiba soalan ni muncul  bila terpaksa lepak jer kat opis walau dah habis time pejabat sebab malas nak meredah hujan lebat (tu lah... dapat parking kat basement tak parking2 lagi, kan dah susah sendiri... hihi.. esok ler I try parking...).. photo bucket image kat blog background dah berjaya di singkirkan bila tukar jer template lain... so here I'm writing again for suka2..

Mula2 tulis blog... sb tgk org ada blog... so teringin ler menambah ilmu dlm dunia IT ni... so baca2 jer la blog orang... best jugak sesekali berkongsi baca citer org ni... ada time tambah knowledge ... kadang2 terasa I'm not alone facing the hard life ( meaning ada jugak org lain alami nasib yg sama or even worst).. then dari membaca jer.. terpikir asyik menerima jer.. nape tak memberi.. even takder follower or the readers are limited or none... maybe sesekali org tervisit blog ni boleh ambil manfaat walaupun sekadar  isi masa lapang

Dan yang paling penting... boleh tulis apa jer yg nak di tulis... yer la kadang2 nak luahkan perasaan... tapi still control jugak ler sb taknak ler di salah-ertikan or menyinggung perasaan org lain or yg seumpamanya... kalau ikutkan hati nak jer luahkan segala2 kat blog... tp pikirkan dunia IT yg macam2... takder la tulis yg bukan2 sgt.... So, I'm back after few months of silence.... ok, now boleh balik rumah... hujan pun sudah reda...

p/s: nanti boleh ler I update entry2 lama yg rasa mcm nak tulis kat sini lagi...

HOW to ajar anak tido bilik sendiri???

Huhh.. HOW to ajar anak tido bilik sendiri???... what a topic... tapi that's the problem that I faced. Macammana lah nak ngajar anak teruna ku yg sorang ni tido sendiri... on his own bed, in his own room after more than 3 years bawah armpit mummy jer.

Bila cakap jer, "nanti pan tido bilik pan lah yer" .. jawabnyer "nanak"... means "tak nak" or tepatnya "NO..NO..NO !".. so how... tu baru cakap, belum buat lagi... tak sampai hati pun ada jugak,  tapi maybe sebab dok cakap2 jer, tak buat2... think I should do it jer lah...hmmmm...hmmmm... camna yer..???

AL-FATIHAH untuk wan

Setelah 112 hari arwah tok kembali ke rahmatullah, wan pula dijemput Illahi. Tanggal 9.Jun.2010, jam 11.00 malam, wan meninggal dunia setelah lebih kurang sebulan terlantar di hospital Sultanah Bahiyah. Wan yg telah lama menghidap lelah telah dimasukkan ke hospital, kerana secara tiba2 mengalami secondary shock leads to pneumonia. Awal2 lagi doktor memaklumkan harapan wan untuk pulih adalah tipis kerana keadaan paru2 yg rosak dan usia yang lanjut meghadkan rawatan yg boleh diberikan oleh doktor.Setelah lebih 2 minggu berada di CCU dan HDU (high dependancy unit), wan ditukarkan ditukarkan ke wad biasa selepas menjalani pembedahan, namun Allah (SWT) lebih menyayangi.

Aku tiba di kampung dlm jam 5.30 ptg, walaupun tidak sempat menatap jenazah sebelum dikebumikan, aku tidak ralat kerana ketika aku pulang menziarahi wan ketika masih di HDU, wan sedarkan diri walaupun tidak mampu bersuara. Wan selamat di kebumikan kira2 jam 12.00 tghari di kampung kelahirannya di tanah perkuburan Telok Chengai seperti yg di suarakan kepada anak2 dan cucu2nya pada hari perkebumian tok dahulu.

Buat arwah wan - Hj.Mahmood bin Mad, semoga rohnya  berada dalam golongan org2 yg soleh.
AL-FATIHAH.

THE very 1st cake

Proudly presented the first cake ever decorated by myself on 2nd June.2010.. hehehe.... so proud of myself.. very2 much.. (tau2 je lah... I'm not the cook's type.... especially bakeries and cookies since not so fond of both... but it 'may' change now... hmmmm... at least, will inspire my self to give life to my oven :) .. ...after more than 15 years... (penah baked cake once masa time KHB zaman sekolah dulu... hahaha)

IRFAN's 3rd B'day

Irfan's turned 3 years old on 4th.May.2010.... dah besar anak ku yg sorang ni....

(cake's deco - ideas by acu and fully sponsored by ngah including all the cupcakes and cookies and lots other stuffsssss)

banner ni mummy yg buat... hehe (cut n paste and add bling2...)

the birthday's boy...waiting patiently for cake's cutting session... ;)

Selamat Hari Lahir sayang .... semoga sentiasa sihat, membesar menjadi anak yg soleh dan berjaya, menjadi kegembiraan dan kebahagiaan mummy, papa and family....

LOVES you sooooo much.... muah muah muah...

KANAK2 Alaf 21

Kanak2 zaman sekarang.... with interests beyond age limit....

is it good or will it spoiled their upringing....

Yang pastinya, bila si anak asyik melayanzzz... boleh ler si ibu menarik nafas panjang... bebas sementara dari kerenah anak yg mcm2... :)

SUNSET in PD

Pictures were taken on 16th.April.2010 along Pord Dickson beaches... loves the view...
 ( although just using standard digital camera :)... )

 father and son's moments

just before we took-off, the clouds revealing the 'full' sun in dusk

p/s: the pictures will definitely look much greater with hubby's new toy..(well, have to wait until I master the skills of playing the toy ..ahakssss)

IJN Follow-Up Check Up

6th April.2010 @ 10.20am... that was the appointment date and time.
Sampai IJN dlm 9.30am, register jap at Paed. clinic then gi breakfast at hospital's cafe
10.15am tunggu turn untuk jumpa doctor... Queue No.: 932 ... room: 905
10.20am... not our turn as yet... on paper and in the system only
11.00am .. still waiting
11.20am... still waiting
11.50am... finally, its our turn....
Masuk bilik 905... jumpa Dr.Mazeni, Irfan's lying on the bed for check up..

11.55am... we're out of the room
Aiyaaaa.... tunggu punya lah lama, jumpa doctor 5 minit jer.....
then waited again for the Doctor's report to be out
12.30am... baru dpt report...

However bila baca report ;
The coil (that was inserted in Irfan's heart 2 years ago) may not be MRI's friendly...
The good news... Irfan is totaly recovered and no more follow-up check-up is needed...
Alhamdullillah.....

Then, off we go to the Gardens MV, whereas hubby went for body massage at Brickfield. Since tak de sales yg betul2 best kat the Gardens, so gi lah jalan2 kat MV. Then, having lunch aka dinner around 4.00pm at Chilli's since papa dah kemaruk kan ribs...  :)

~ @ Chilli's : underneath the big chilli ~

~ papa's meal : beef ribs ~

~ mummy's & irfan's meal : triple play ~

HOW To Train Your Dragon

Yesterday, took Irfan to watch  "How to train your dragon" at GSC, IOI... first time for Irfan watching at cinema..(alamak.. lupa bawa camera, so terpaksa guna phone to capture this moment.. (little, than none)

Sampai IOI around 2.45pm, show at 3.15pm... so before the show start " dragon belum sampai lagi"... that was the excuse of waiting for the show to start.

Masuk jer dlm cinema, Irfan start tanya soalan2 berkaitan cinema ... not the movie... huhuhu
~ about the seat numbering .. our seat is no.1, papa seat no.2.... refering to the label at the seat ..then no. 8, no. 9  ( characters in the movie called "NINE")
~ the lighting and the speaker on the cinema's wall...
~ and even the carpet... hahaha

Time show dah start, risau jugak Irfan bising ... in which ada time2 yg mmg dia bising asking questions and imitate the character in the show... tapi most of the audiences are the kids with their parents... so mmg ada jer terdengar suara2 kecil  during the show...

Dalam malap2 wayang tu...tgh2 show.. suddenly Irfan asked "Mummy, apa ni?..." sambil tangan dia memegang dinding kat sebelah kitaorang... hahaha.... macam3x la anak ku yg sorang ni...

Not sure if Irfan really enjoying the movie... maybe ada certain2 part yg dia suka... not his kind of favourite perhaps.... because, kalau dia suka... definitely he will asked for another show.... luckily, his not ;)

Oppsss... Movie Review:
Orait ler... citer cartoon... jalan citer menarik sebenarnya... inspiring for little people... tapi ikut2kan kurang sesuai dgn kanak2 especially bab the Vikings killing the dragons..the rest - green light. Anyway, as along as the kids can differentiate between cartoon and reality... then should be okay... overall.. I still like...

DAMAI Laut ... Here we come

1st time for Irfan, 2nd time for hubby and 3rd time for me in the last 5 years... The 1st time my hubby and I came here was around this time as well, but back in 2005, remember it well because it was my birthday gift to my hubby... the "honeymoon package" at Swiss Garden Damai Laut ..still honeymooning time :)

2nd time - office's team building in 2006, if I'm not mistaken. And now with my family - under swiss garden mini-vacation club (malas nak layan program camni mula2... tapi dah hubby orait jer.. so follow jer la,,).

Bertolak dari rumah dlm 2pm, hantar keta hubby gi touch up kat Shah Alam, then bertolak ke Lumut... fuhhh... jauh benar rasanya... anyway, safely arrived at Damai Laut around 6pm. After check-in, terus bawa Irfan to the beach since Irfan dah bising2 nak gi beach. Just wandered around for a while before we returned to our room.

~sempat kasi Irfan try test buggy otw back to our room ~

                 ~ the man's made water fall... @ swimming pool and fish pond ~

That night we had dinner at Gayam -birthday's treat for hubby... "Happy Birthday dear"... since no birthday present except b'day card (hmmm.... nak hadiah kena la bagi hadiah... p/s: mcm balas dendam jer ;))

The next moning, we follow the tour around Damai Laut, naik tram.. which Irfan likes the most ...

Petangnya, went to the beach.. suka betul Irfan main dekat beach, sampai taknak naik... plan awal, pergi beach then gi swimming kat swimming pool, but ended up.. beach all the way...

Malam just lepak kat bilik, having McD for dinner... hahaha...For Irfan, it was a great and fun experience...

HOT AIR BALLOON'S

Last Friday, took Irfan to 2nd Putrajaya International Hot-air Balloon's Fiesta 2010 at Precint 2. The event started on 18th till 21st March.2010. Since we will not be around that weekend, so I decided to take Irfan to the office that day and then off to Putrajaya during lunch time. Unfortunately, no hot-air balloon in the mid-afternoon ( why laaa I tak boleh pikir, hot air baloon mana boleh naik time2 tghri... its too hot for take off), so just walk around the bazaar for a while before return to office.

However, Irfan's returned not empty handed... he got a remote control car -" LIGHTNING McQUEEN" of CARS. So, Irfan's spending his time playing with the car at my office.

5.00pm, we off once again to Putrajaya.. the areas already packed with people, and no more parking space nearby... so we have to park at quite a distance from the balloon launching area. Irfan was asleep in the car while I'm looking for parking space and stucked in the jammed at the area. Of course, he woke up to watch the hot air baloon launched one after another.

The balloon to be launched...

 the "UP" balloon - irfan's favourite

the baloon with "GAS PETRONAS" banner - using the Petronas' gas or sponsored by gas petronas ?!!

the balloons high up in the sky

Foot note:

The hot air balloon is the oldest successful human-carrying flight technology and is a subset of balloon aircraft. A hot air balloon consists of a bag called the envelope that is capable of containing heated air.The heated air inside the envelope makes it buoyant since it has a lower density than the relatively cold air outside the envelope. Unlike gas balloons, the envelope does not have to be sealed at the bottom since the air near the bottom of the envelope is at the same pressure as the surrounding air.